Kautsar Abd Rahman

New term have just started for me. I am officially a third year law student now, and am loving it

It is probably the familiarity that makes me comfortable now and also the joy of new things. I love it when you have this whole new clean slate in front of you – clean academic record, waiting for you to paint it. Well, the start of the year is always cheerful for me, before it goes on a dip. I am well prepared – haha, like every year’s new resolution, I will study, study,study from early on!! Hee..I will have to make it work this year, my last year as a student. I would like to take my vow seriously this time. Last chance!! The picture above is my college by the way. Right smack in the heart of London, near the River Thames and Royal Court Of Justice.  Dandy.

Got few things up my sleeve now for this year. The photography society looks like it’s going to be fun. I haven’t been to Amnesty International meeting yet. And I am still rather undecided if I should join the Dance Club. Would love to, but time seems a bit restricted, now that I am in my third year thus workload tends to be horrible! I am not even sure if I would be going to Berlin on SIFE World Cup this weekend. Free accommodation, yo. Haha, I know I should take the chance but I would be missing A LOT of lectures. Damn, and I actually feel awful about missing them. tsk. So, this blog of mine will now be dedicated to a final year as a student, a final year abroad in London and the adventures in between I hope it makes a good one.

Photos credit to Jamie Barra, the guy whose awesome  Flickr I invaded.

With all naivety I decided to seek what I should have seeked all this while. I have spent my days in laze, staying at home, doing barely anything. I haven’t got the chance to do charity as I don’t come across anyone and I do not go to mosque for some reason, which I regret.

I bought a little cute notebook to start jotting down whatever I feel and whatever I think I should do. And things that I want. That way, I could keep track of myself, spiritually. I can’t expect my own self to cover all these things I want to do, I actually need an organizer so I could tick off things from my list. Like : Keeping promises, teaching unfortunate students, helping my mum, go to mosque, etc.

And I am having my menstruation now, so I am taking it as a chance to jump start my search for God.

Just now, on facebook, my mouse accidentally clicked onto a page or a link that showed the tips to get Lailatul-Qadr. I was very grateful it happened and took it as a good sign from Above

I am a long way to where I used to be, and much farther from whom I want to become.

Ya Allah, I hope You could guide this path for me, I dont want to get lost again. I dont want to stay lost right now. Ya Allah, please take me away from here, to the path Lighted and make me strong enough to walk on the lane towards You. Forgive me for all that I have done, I am Your most humble servant, who suffers the minute she turns her back on You.

InsyaAllah.